I grabbed all the covers, and pillows off my bed.. Which if you knew me, you would know that took SEVERAL trips. I made a little comfy area on the patio, and spent a few hours reading through the betrayal, and death of Christ. I asked God to give me great empathy for Him, and greater understanding. So here it is..
#1. The agony of knowing not only the physical pain He was about to endure, but the seperation from His Father.
I am reminicing on the moments of guilt and shame in my life. Can you remember yours? Now imagine it all, every murder, every lie, every cheating heart that has ever felt guilt and shame, at once. Each sin’s weight on you, and seperation from peace, love, forgiveness. My heart tears as Jesus knowing He was about to go through this, asks “MY FATHER! If it is possible, take this cup of suffering from me. Yet, I want your will.”
#2. Being betrayed.
Have YOU ever been betrayed by someone you spent everyday with? Judas kisses the cheek of Jesus, and His reply? “Judas, would you betray the son of man with a kiss?” A kiss was a greeting between close friends, and that is the very sign Judas used to giveaway Jesus identity. After that Jesus asks ” Am I some dangeous revolutionary that you come with swords and clubs to arrest me? Why didn’t you arrest me in the temple? I was there teaching everyday. But, this is your moment, the time when the power of darkness reigns.”
I can hear it as I read these words, Jesus knew each of these people.. Not due to being the son God, but they were all together in the temple. THESE, are the people that betrayed Him.. the ones He knew.
#3. His Humility.
It is hard to miss this bit of character that Jesus carries so well.
Imagine, a parent.. taking a grounding for their child. Now the father answers the phone to a friend “Im sorry, I can’t.. Im grounded for the next three days.”
It doesn’t fit, and neither does this. Jesus could have called down the angels. Heck, He could have atleast made them mutes so He didn’t have to listen to the mockery. “They placed a blind fold on Him, and as they jeered and smacked Him, they mocked..’Prophesy over us now, oh King… Who hit you that time?” (Matt. 26:67) ..
My blood boils at this moment.
#4. His death, proves His identity.
I grew up believing His resurection is what proves He is/was the Messiah (which is true). But I picked up new information.. His death proved His identity to one of the guards. As the earth quaked and the veil was torn. ” The Roman Officer overseeing the crucifixion saw what happened and began worshipping God, he said “Surely,this man was innocent.” (Luke 23:47)
“When the Roman Officer facing Him saw how He had died, he exclaimed ‘This man truly was the son of God!’ (Mark 15:39)
Ringing in my ears “CRUCIFY HIM! CRUCIFY HIM!”, I can’t imagine the way Jesus felt hearing those words screamed by a crowd of people whom He loved so deeply.. And with each of our sins, and disobediance we yell again.. “CRUCIFY HIM!”
There is always something to be felt, and to be transformed by.. these are the things transforming me today.
He is good, He is worthy, He is King. And I am forever joyfully, indebted.
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