Growing up I went to church everytime the doors were open- I still do, and when we are on tour I watch my church’s Ustream-sometimes for both services. I feel like I need to.. It isn’t that I don’t like it- but its part of my life like.. eating- I do it without thinking, I don’t skip it- I need it to live. I’ve never thought anything of it until reading through Isaiah this week.I really like to read and Im quick at it but this time I just kept coming back to the same verses and rereading them.
“When you come to appear before me, who requires of you this trampling of my courts? … Bring your worthless offerings no longer.”
They’ve done it this time..God doesn’t even want offerings anymore? in verse 14 He even says he HATES them.
Obviously GOD is frustrated with the people of Judah, and Jerusalem. — the more you read (Isaiah 1:12-20) the more you realize that He was frustrated because they were “worshipping” out of habit or routine instead of because they loved Him.( And they were living in deadly sins). Im at a loss of words for how to explain this.. so bare with me….How many times have I lifted my hands because of the song, and because I was at church, instead of because I adore my creator? How many days have I picked up my Bible because I should, instead of the fact that its instructions written just for me by my beloved SAVIOR and I want to KNOW HIM? And its not intentional by any means. Rereading these verses, it breaks me- I can feel the emotion behind Christ’s words.. His heart is broken. People are coming to Him because its a routine like showering or like seeing the dentist- He doesn’t want to be your dentist.. He wants to be the Lover of Your Soul.
I don’t want to worship because I have or I am use to it.. I want to, want to. Because I adore Christ.Because I want to KNOW Him and hear from Him.
I came to the last few verses where Christ explains His love for us- honestly I read this over and over for an hour as I sat and cried.
“Come now and let us reason together. ” Says the Lord, “Though your sins are as scarlet, they will be white as snow. Though they are red like crimson, they will be like wool. If you consent and obey, you will eat the best of the land; but if you refuse and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword.” Truly the mouth of the Lord has spoken.
For some reason imagining what scarlet and crimson are- considering my self not just tainted by sin but STAINED- and seeing Christ take that from me. Making me pure and white. Man… Thats enough to make me want to fall in love with Him more and more every single day.
I want to show Jesus I love Him. By waking up early and talking/ listening to Him. Being excited to hear from Him through His Word. Gah.. I have no answers to this.. all I am saying is, I don’t want to break God’s heart. I love Him. I want to please Him.
… are you falling in love.. or in habit?
Ps. You still need to worship and give offerings. Just incase I confused anyone. Just do it because you love Jesus instead of it being a habit.